I'm not on a diet
I
am
on
a
DO-IT
Tuesday, September 16, 2014
Monday, September 15, 2014
I have to be proud of me ...
I have to be proud of me because it means more coming from ME than it does from anyone else.
Not to mention, not very many even recognize how far I have actually come.
I began this journey of health and training my brain on April 3rd. My original goal was to lose 80 lbs at a rate of 1 to 2 pounds per week.
On September 9th for the first time, someone who doesn't know that I am in training told me that it looked like I may have lost a little weight.
April 3rd to September 9th!!! That is over FIVE months folks! 5 MONTHS!! And for the first time I get the 'have you lost a little weight' question!! Mind you, this is after 39 pounds...and it looks like I have lost a 'little' weight.
That was a victory and I'll take it.
The day before (a single day before) someone told me that my body still looked the same, but it looked like I had lost some weight in my face. In my FACE!!!???
Well...here it is. I have lost in both my face and my body. 39 pounds is only one pound away from being half-way-there. Half way is a nicer place to live, but I won't be here long, I fully intend to win this battle with my body and my brain. This will be a downhill ride soon - I just need to creep over the precipice. Today I feel like 39 is still on the uphill side of the mountain. But in the back of my mind, I am thinking that every coming pound to lose will be on the uphill side as well. That is ok, I am not quitting. I am keeping this in motion and I WILL scoot over the top.
And by the way, I really should be proud of me. I went from size 16 pant (snug by the way) and a 2X shirt size - - - to my current size 12 (loose) and XL size shirt. I have two FULL garbage bags of clothes in my car ready to go to the donation center. I am getting them out of my closet and purging the loose comfy clothes that hide my curves. Right now, my closet is down to a bare minimum, but I refuse to keep clothes that are too big. I REFUSE to return to that me that wore that size.
41 pounds left to go. It may take another five months, and that has got to be alright. I am going to do this in the most healthy way that I can. But I have to say, that my brain is responding very well to this new training and my body is following.
side-note: yesterday was a turn-around day for me. I realized that I have to have more faith - not just lip service but actual faith. So I do. And today I feel that relief. It was like an instant fix. I highly recommend it to everyone. Best way to kick-start whatever you have going on. It works. Faith is the KEY!!
Not to mention, not very many even recognize how far I have actually come.
I began this journey of health and training my brain on April 3rd. My original goal was to lose 80 lbs at a rate of 1 to 2 pounds per week.
On September 9th for the first time, someone who doesn't know that I am in training told me that it looked like I may have lost a little weight.
April 3rd to September 9th!!! That is over FIVE months folks! 5 MONTHS!! And for the first time I get the 'have you lost a little weight' question!! Mind you, this is after 39 pounds...and it looks like I have lost a 'little' weight.
That was a victory and I'll take it.
The day before (a single day before) someone told me that my body still looked the same, but it looked like I had lost some weight in my face. In my FACE!!!???
Well...here it is. I have lost in both my face and my body. 39 pounds is only one pound away from being half-way-there. Half way is a nicer place to live, but I won't be here long, I fully intend to win this battle with my body and my brain. This will be a downhill ride soon - I just need to creep over the precipice. Today I feel like 39 is still on the uphill side of the mountain. But in the back of my mind, I am thinking that every coming pound to lose will be on the uphill side as well. That is ok, I am not quitting. I am keeping this in motion and I WILL scoot over the top.
And by the way, I really should be proud of me. I went from size 16 pant (snug by the way) and a 2X shirt size - - - to my current size 12 (loose) and XL size shirt. I have two FULL garbage bags of clothes in my car ready to go to the donation center. I am getting them out of my closet and purging the loose comfy clothes that hide my curves. Right now, my closet is down to a bare minimum, but I refuse to keep clothes that are too big. I REFUSE to return to that me that wore that size.
41 pounds left to go. It may take another five months, and that has got to be alright. I am going to do this in the most healthy way that I can. But I have to say, that my brain is responding very well to this new training and my body is following.
side-note: yesterday was a turn-around day for me. I realized that I have to have more faith - not just lip service but actual faith. So I do. And today I feel that relief. It was like an instant fix. I highly recommend it to everyone. Best way to kick-start whatever you have going on. It works. Faith is the KEY!!
Tuesday, August 26, 2014
Setting Goals
So today I set myself some goals that I hope will help in healing my body & mind - because that is what I think the problem is...it isn't that I am FAT - it is that I am BROKEN. My opinion of course...
- Keep Faith
- I have always had faith - Faith in God - Faith in Family - but I think it may be time for me to roll myself into the middle of that Faith - I need to gain faith in ME
- Smile
- I hear that it is a real thing that the emotions you express become your perception which in turn become your reality. It won't hurt me to smile, if nothing else, I can cover my sadness and despair so others aren't brought down too...
- Lose Weight
- I am TRYING - seriously - trying. I'm sticking to it. Not easy when friends have birthdays or the kids want to eat out, but I really am trying HARD to be on track...
- Set New Goals
- This one is more than a personal thing - I need to set lots of goals, not just the Train Your Brain Goals... Financial Goals needs to be included in this - also, professional goals. I need to get my thoughts and actions straightened out so there is less stress in my life.
- Eliminate Clutter
- Speaking of stress - let's talk about how bad having clutter can confuse the brain and the senses!!! This is a combined goal in my home that WE reduce clutter and become less stressed.
- Encourage Others
- I need to begin listening to and encouraging others. Starting with the closest ones to me whom I love the most and hopefully this spirit of encouragement can spill into the lives of passers-by in my day-to-day journey through life.
- Turn Off Fears
- Easier said than done. This one is going to take some serious concentration. For starters, I need to sit down and actually figure out WHAT my fears are, so I can shut them down one by one. Baby Steps Folks.
- Increase Knowledge
- Aside from the University of YouTube, I fully intend to better myself, learn everything I can learn, hopefully go BACK to SCHOOL and really get some knowledge in this brain. Let's get 'er trained up!
- Forgive
Monday, August 11, 2014
Thought I was doing pretty good - maybe I am by someone's standards, but I don't think 'someone' has to look at me in the MIRROR - but I do - so for MY standards, I am seriously thinking today that I am not doing too great.
Frustrated, I sat down on the bed - at which time, I felt EVEN fatter, because the fatty parts just sort-of clumped together like a big ball of yeast bread waiting to be formed into buns.
Good news - tonight I did exercise however...so not all is lost. about 10 min on the cardioglide - about 10 min with paper plates on the livingroom floor (sometime, remind me to tell you about THAT exercise - let's just say I won't be doing it in the presence of anyone - that will be an alone-time-exercise).
got down to 34 lb weight loss, but after all the eating this weekend, I am back up to 30 lbs lost......... now to start pointing the scale in the right direction and moving that way!!
Feeling really down in the dumps tonight - just down. Is it a universal thing? I see lots of people on facebook in the doldrums too. Not good - I don't want to see that. I am trying my hardest to smile and keep a chin-up-attitude.
I just have to kick myself in the pants because I feel like 'I won't ever, EVER be that person...I am too far gone" But I know that deep down inside me may not be 'that' person, but I know that there is an even better me - so I need to lose some of this fat outter shell so she can get out and be awesome.
Frustrated, I sat down on the bed - at which time, I felt EVEN fatter, because the fatty parts just sort-of clumped together like a big ball of yeast bread waiting to be formed into buns.
Good news - tonight I did exercise however...so not all is lost. about 10 min on the cardioglide - about 10 min with paper plates on the livingroom floor (sometime, remind me to tell you about THAT exercise - let's just say I won't be doing it in the presence of anyone - that will be an alone-time-exercise).
got down to 34 lb weight loss, but after all the eating this weekend, I am back up to 30 lbs lost......... now to start pointing the scale in the right direction and moving that way!!
Feeling really down in the dumps tonight - just down. Is it a universal thing? I see lots of people on facebook in the doldrums too. Not good - I don't want to see that. I am trying my hardest to smile and keep a chin-up-attitude.
I just have to kick myself in the pants because I feel like 'I won't ever, EVER be that person...I am too far gone" But I know that deep down inside me may not be 'that' person, but I know that there is an even better me - so I need to lose some of this fat outter shell so she can get out and be awesome.
Here I am - on ANOTHER diet.
Not just another diet really - my LAST diet.
This is going to be it for me folks.
Why?
Because I am going to attain and maintain my goal weight.
This is not an easy thing for me to do.
Nope.
Not because it is hard to lose weight (which it IS!!!!)
but because I am being honest about it.
and honesty hurts sometimes.
And by 'sometimes' I mean ALL the time.
SO, here goes. Another diet blog to join the masses - another diet - but NOT just a diet - this folks is the LAST DIET - because I am not just going on a healthy eating, exercise program diet, I am training my brain.
Follow along if you like - this is me - honest - and real.... there is your warning - you only get the one, so if you want to follow, you are welcome - if you don't, then leave now...because this is just real from here on out.\
(and not to sound mean, but this isn't for you, this is for ME)
The only reason I am blogging this is because I really need accountability - this is my way to look back and cheer myself on through victories and overcome failures.
Not just another diet really - my LAST diet.
This is going to be it for me folks.
Why?
Because I am going to attain and maintain my goal weight.
This is not an easy thing for me to do.
Nope.
Not because it is hard to lose weight (which it IS!!!!)
but because I am being honest about it.
and honesty hurts sometimes.
And by 'sometimes' I mean ALL the time.
SO, here goes. Another diet blog to join the masses - another diet - but NOT just a diet - this folks is the LAST DIET - because I am not just going on a healthy eating, exercise program diet, I am training my brain.
Follow along if you like - this is me - honest - and real.... there is your warning - you only get the one, so if you want to follow, you are welcome - if you don't, then leave now...because this is just real from here on out.\
(and not to sound mean, but this isn't for you, this is for ME)
The only reason I am blogging this is because I really need accountability - this is my way to look back and cheer myself on through victories and overcome failures.
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